my god, where to even begin..... i have so much running through my mind right now, it's unreal. i'm not really worried about much, it just seems i have a lot to do. i need to catch up on hmwk and i should probably read stuff for ISS, since that exam is coming up in a week or so..... but i guess i have heavier questions on my mind...

probably the biggest is just that annoying feeling of not being good enough. or am i??? i don't know, it seems the only attention i get from guys runs along the lines of, "wow, lets stare and laugh at the fat chick". which hurts...but anyway. i get along with everyone, or so it seems. i just can't help feeling something is wrong, but i can't place what. bah, i don't know.

oh yeah. and i realized not too long ago, that the guy who i thought was a really good friend, actually doesn't talk to me anymore. he claims he wants me to come to his university for my 21st, but he doesn't mean it. i won't go. i just can't see where i screwed up with him....we never dated, nor was that ever a question. i don't know, again, i'm just a screw up. that's all i'll ever be.

saw Annapolis, good movie. go see it. James Franco is hot, as is Tyrese.... good movie...anyway, i'm not going to get into this any further....later..