Enough.

I realized today just how horrible I am as a friend. I've let down so many people, it's no wonder I'm losing friends. I know I was the one who brought up Chicago, and made the plans, then broke them. But I had nothing to do with not being able to remake the plans. But I'll accept the blame anyway. I'm just going to do it this way:
I'm sorry I'm not the person you thought I was.
I'm sorry I can't keep any of the promises I make.
I'm sorry we never made it to the places we said we would, that's my fault.
I'm sorry I can't get the money I thought I was going to get.
I'm sorry you feel as if everything you do gets on my nerves, it doesn't.
I'm sorry everything I do gets on your nerves.
I'm sorry I've wasted your time all of these years.
I'm sorry you won't miss me.
I'm sorry I turned out to be such a waste of space.
I'm sorry for everything I've said or done.
I'm sorry to waste space in your phone.
I'm sorry I didn't hear the truth from you, I had to read it second hand.

However..
I am happy you are smart enough to have other friends.
I am happy you are better off without me.
I am happy you will lead a better life.
I am happy you won't have to deal with me anymore, unless you choose otherwise.

I just want to correct the mistakes I have made, but I know I can't. I'm sorry for everything I've said or done that has caused someone else pain, which is apparently all I have done in the last few weeks. I have no excuses, I'm just a horrible person to whom no one should be exposed. I really give up, there's nothing I can do to make you feel as if I am the friend I once was. It's apparently different now. You have no patience with me, and I don't know how to deal with any of this any more. I guess you've made your decision, and I have to live with that. I'm sorry, I can't live like this anymore. It hurts so much, but I will just have to learn to deal with it. I'm just sorry.