Stress

Blah. I hate the end of the semesters. Especially this one since it seems to be worse than all the others. My two hardest exams are on the same freaking day, which is causing a major headache. I have to work on the only day I have to study, which is not my fault, btw. I'm not so worried about Chemistry as I am Physics. Chemistry makes some sense to me, but Physics just doesn't. All I need is a 1.0 to make it to the next class, where I'll actually have a class instead of a bunch of crap online. Yes, online courses are indeed the devil. On top of all this, last week I was severely pissed off at both Ellie and Hilary, thus causing me to cancel our hotel reservations in Chicago. Here's the catch: Chicago's crime rate has recently sky rocketed with murders and gang related violence. The last thing I want is to use the El during a period where the most common thing is murder. I keep being reminded that I need to make reservations in a city that I"m quite reluctant to visit now. I've never felt so unsure about Chicago before, regardless of the fact I've known for years that all large cities are relatively dangerous. Maybe I just won't go, I don't know yet.

On to the next mini-rant subject. I really hate it when people take something they have, which they know you a) can't have and b) currently don't have, and rub it into your face. That's how I'm feeling about my friend in Florida. Every time I talk to her all she can talk about is her , now official, boyfriend. How he's so wonderful and kind and doesn't care about sex, and he just loves her for who she is and the fact they have so much in common and how rich he is....GAG ME. If anyone actually reads this, do the rest of us a favor, talk about something for a while, but be careful how it might make the other person feel. I know I can be a bit obnoxious, especially about my recent weight loss, and I'm really trying to tone it down, but give me a break. I don't want to know all the little things about Richy Rich that make him so perfect for you!!!!!! I can see her wanting to tell me and me being happy for her, but when that's all she talks about, well, that and her perfect horse, I get really sick of it really quickly. I honestly am happy for her, I think....but it just makes me feel somehow sub-standard, as if it were some sort of grading system, like beef. She must be "Prime" and I think I fall somewhere around "standard" (for those of you who don't know the beef grading scale, prime is the best, standard is not good at all.)\

Anyway, I should get back to studying, I have to exams to get ready for. Hope you enjoyed another episode of the Loser Show!