why does this happen to everyone???

Well, where do I begin?? Let's start with the weekend. Saturday, I unfortunately had to work morning shift. Oh well, I made that up for it that evening. Megan, Hilary and I went to see Jarhead. Such a good movie. But please, please do not go if you only want a typical war movie, THIS IS NOT THAT KIND OF MOVIE!!!! But if you understand Marines, and the fact this movie is a TRUE story, go see it and enjoy.
After the movie, we went to an MSU Hockey game. Ah, so wonderful. Some of the hottest guys on campus are hockey players. Of course, Megan has officially won in the "lets covert Jess to a Hockey fan" but that's not a bad thing! All three of us had a great night, and I can't remember the last time I've laughed that hard.

The Sunday came, not a good day. I start off the day being late for work, but no one yelled at me, cuz I was talking to my parents (something none of us have the time for anymore.) And my mother told me she called to see how my grandfather was doing. My aunts passed the phone around, then he just got on the phone to say he loved my mom, and that was it. He hasn't died, but everyone is afraid it's really just around the corner. I just can't deal with that.

Then, refering back to Jarhead. A friend of mine in VA saw it on Sunday, and said he never felt more alone in his life. I know what he means. He related to a character in a situation, that made everything seem too real. I saw a play this evening at my theatre job, and I felt the same way. This character made me feel alone, like her part was me, in eleven years. I just can't deal with seeing myself like that, and yet, I don't know how to alter it. I just want to be happy, and I can't seem to find much happiness. I've become a great actress, not allowing many people to see the truth. There are a couple of people who know, but I try to keep it fairly quiet. I don't know, this thing is just my journal, so don't mind me. до свиданя.